This year, x'mas is exceptionally quiet and lonely for me. I did not heed the best advice given to me this season. I threw an ultimatum. Sigh!!! I will not and should not feel regret. I hope.
Not having any boozing session for this festive season seem sort of not right. Especially in my current situation. Why am I still hoping there will be any form of changes? If it's my life, why am I not in control? All I wanted for x'mas is a good dinner with someone special. No need for present. ( but secretly I hope there is). Sometime I wonder if I ask for too much. Someone once told me, give and don't ask. Does it exist? Why can't we give and have something in return too?
Lord, I seek ur guidance and wisdom. Merry merrily x'mas to me.
Ps: I just order a bottle of red wine to cheer myself up.
